Sermon by Pastor Reed

Now this is a message that every human being alive should hear!!!
My friend and Pastor Curtis Reed teaching on sex…

Sermon to the Daystar Community, Athi River Campuscropped-ajenda-logo1
At the Daystar Compassion and Care Center chapel
Tuesday September 23rd, 2014

By Pastor Curtis Reed

SS6On September 23, 2014, Pastor Curtis Reed delivered a sermon to the Daystar University’s Compassion and Care Center on sexual addiction. Below is a loose transcript of the sermon. Although most of it has been kept verbatim to retain the oral flavor of the text, there are some instances in which I made structural adjustments to make the text read easier. A copy of the sermon in PDF can be downloaded here. Blessings, Wandia.

Good morning everybody.

I don’t want to spend much time; time is already far spent. I want to say a few introductory remarks. First is to thank the Daystar Compassion and Care Center.  And I want to thank Sister Susan and the rest of the Care community for inviting me to meet the…

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Wars and petals

I have been having this struggle for a while. Several people I have talked to share the same struggle. Some of you reading this post will also identify with me. I don’t know if it can be explained but I will try….

I am a little crazy when it comes to friendship and love. My ideal friendship is where we give ourselves fully to each other, we are loyal to each other, we are thoughtful towards each other, we defend each other, pray for each other and go the extra mile for each other. Notice the…’each other’, it is a two way. Otherwise a one way is more of charity and not friendship.

Last year and for a chunk of my life, I chose several people and threw my whole heart into loving them and being true to them. I would be there for them and make them feel special. For example for their birthdays I would bake custom made cakes for them, take them out for a good meal and make or buy gifts for them. It was not just random gifts but well thought out gifts that i spent time to think about and choose. I am not rich, I just thought they should know that they are appreciated much and that they are special! Girlfriends and male friends alike…. I think everyone needs to be reminded that they are important! 🙂 I was ready to empty my bank account for them, pick up their calls at 2am and basically drop everything to meet them if they needed me to do that. There came times though when I was in need and very few could return the favor. They would give excuses and this drove me up the wall!!!! I got help from the least expected places. I mean the least!! You can imagine the feeling of wasted efforts on the wrong people…

I have taken time this year to reflect on who I can really count on, in Swahili we say ‘kufa kupona’ (for better or for worse), and I have found that the number is small. The few are not from the circles i expected but I welcome the pleasant surprise.  I am also learning to not do things for people expecting anything in return and this is probably what some of you are thinking while you read this 🙂 I agree with this especially because God has loved me so much not because I can give anything in return! He just loves and loves and loves! He is love!! 🙂

Think this through with me though, what happened to virtues like loyalty and faithfulness in our relationships? What happened to having passionate friendships? What happened to the David and Jonathan kind of friendships? Sometimes i feel like believing in the existence of such commitment is like living in a fairy tale or believing in Santa Claus but I can’t help it! That is just who I am and I will hold fast to the few ‘kufa kuponas’ I have. I am grateful for them!! 🙂

Due to my experience above, I have stepped back from several people. It is easier for me to give my salary to a total stranger who is in need than a person in my life who is mean’t to be a ‘kufa kupona’ but they have proven to be otherwise. It has become easier to bake a cake and give it to the mboga guy who salivates every time i say hello to him as I pass by his shop ferrying a cake to a client… than for an ‘average’ friend. I expect nothing in return, he owes me nothing so I can love him without holding back…

Loving Strangers

Is my heart wretched? Maybe but that is the truth about where I am at.

I would like to hear your thoughts on this. Inbox me or comment down here..

Love,

Ndanu

Is anything too hard for God? Nope!!!!!

Just listened to this testimony and it blew my mind! You think you are in too deep? You think you are done for? You think there is no hope for you? Think again!!

Freedom ain’t a myth. It is real! It is for freedom that Christ came!!

Watch this and be wowed!

Gal 5:1

It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery.

Love,

Ndanu

The Magic in Life :-)

Today has been a beautiful day and I feel all sorts of things bubbling inside of me. Got me thinking about all the things that have been extraordinary or magical in my 25 years of this life. I have seen many amazing things but I am not talking about that. I am talking about things that are sooooo good they feel unreal! Things that touch a part of our hearts that is seldom reached. I am sure you are starting to get what I am saying 😀

Since these things are so extraordinary, they happen fewer times than we can imagine. I have 5 such magical moments. They may seem small to you but they meant and felt like a thousand suns to me! 🙂

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1) Lollipops were popular some years ago. I had bought one for myself one day and my brother Muoki appeared just as I was putting it into my mouth. He always liked to tease me and on this day he wanted me to give him the lollipop. I put it in my mouth very fast because no one eats something that someone has already put into their mouth. Muoki is not everyone though… He took it from my mouth, said thank you, put it in his mouth and walked away saying, “Kwani mate yako ni sumu?” (Your saliva ain’t poison!) My heart was melting at this time…. In the most wierd way, I was moved by the fact that he could eat something straight from my mouth. A true blood connection that one.  Magical!! I will never forget that! Never! 🙂

2) I had a bad fever like 6 years ago. My parents prayed over me as we went to bed that night. In the middle of the night, I felt a gentle hand on my forehead feeling for the fever. My mum had woken up and walked silently into my room to check on me. One of the sweetest things anyone has ever done for me. I felt like I was 2 years old again with nothing to fear! My heart melted…. Magical!! 🙂 🙂

3) My 1st kiss happened like 5 years ago. My then boyfriend and I had had a picnic in a nice park. We had talked a lot, eaten like crazy, laughed and prayed together. We took a walk as the sun was setting and then it happened. I can’t remember who went first and all those details but it was beautiful! My heart was singing a million halleluyas in perfect harmony. Pitch perfect! 😀 Magical!!! 🙂 🙂

4) 4 years ago, I sat alone on some nice wooden seats overlooking the sea in Busan Korea. It was a nice evening, the breeze was calming and the view was so beautiful. I remember I was having a hard time in a foreign land and I was missing home badly. However, taking all that beauty in and sitting there all alone in my thoughts, I felt a peace that the human mind cannot fathom. I knew I was going to be ok…. Such beauty! Such serenity! Magical!! 🙂 🙂

5) The final one happened today. I was leading worship in church and a time came when the presence of God was so overwhelming. I was praying for the people but the rest of me felt like I was floating. It’s like God had saturated all the air around with His presence. I could stay in that exact position forever. Felt like heaven on earth. There is a God! Jehovah is God! Magical!!

I think about these experiences and I am so glad to be alive! May I live long to experience more of these wonders!
Life may not be easy but it is good!
Open your eyes to the wonders around you today! It’s in the small things 🙂 🙂 🙂

Love,
Ndanu

The Deep End!

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A client called me this past Sunday and asked that I make her a Mickey Mouse cake for her son’s birthday. I thought of automatically buying a print out like I have always done but another thought occurred to me. I could make it more 3D…. The latter option would be more difficult but the challenge was some what exciting. I have also been praying for God to expand my gift and this was the perfect opportunity to trust Him.

The plan was to bake very early so that if it backfired, then I would result to my print out… Such little faith!! hehe!! I decided that I would plunge into the deep and believe that everything would go well. A friend of mine posted this poem on facebook and it reminded me of the place of faith and passion in this life. It is one of my favorite poem/prayer. I like to start every year with it… I guess I will pull it out every time I want to take the easy way out, every time I am dreaming too little, every time I am swimming too close to the shore….

Disturb us, Lord, when
We are too well pleased with ourselves,
When our dreams have come true
Because we have dreamed too little,
When we arrived safely
Because we sailed too close to the shore.

Disturb us, Lord, when
With the abundance of things we possess
We have lost our thirst
For the waters of life;
Having fallen in love with life,
We have ceased to dream of eternity
And in our efforts to build a new earth,
We have allowed our vision
Of the new Heaven to dim.

Disturb us, Lord, to dare more boldly,
To venture on wider seas
Where storms will show your mastery;
Where losing sight of land,
We shall find the stars.

We ask You to push back
The horizons of our hopes;
And to push into the future
In strength, courage, hope, and love.

Attributed – sir francis drake -1577
I went to google and found 2 youtube videos on how to do a proper Mickey Mouse cake. I also downloaded the photo on my phone and kept looking at it. I was fasting the day before the decoration day so i added the cake challenge to my prayer list. I stood for 2 hours doing it and had a back ache at the end. My hand would shake like crazy sometimes and I would want so bad to give up but I kept pushing. I felt like God was there with me, showing me what to do and cheering me on! 🙂 The results amazed me. I am grateful to God for that ‘expansion’. Growth is not easy but it is of utmost importance.
My next challenge is a Barbie doll. So scary….
I will keep trusting though…. Deep end all the way!! 🙂 🙂 😛
Psalm 118:4
The LORD is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation.
Love,
Ndanu

Dads and Mums

Parents bring us forth. They teach us the very first life lessons. They become the people we look up to. We love them and desire to make them happy as much as possible. I used to think that their influence on us ends when we grow older but recently I have discovered that it probably never ends.

There is a relative of mine who is nearly 40 years old now. She shared something that shocked me. She still remembers that when she was like 3 years old, her mother compared her to her sister. You see she has a sister that was much lighter in complexion than her. Her mother said, probably in passing, that the lighter one was more beautiful than her. This stuck with her all her life. She decided that if her mum said it then it had to be true. She believed that she was not beautiful and so she put all her energy to her brains. She scored all As and got a very good job. She rose through the ranks, traveled the world, bought a house and big cars. She realized though a few years ago that she is now quite old and unmarried because she was hurt and spent all those years trying to feel worthy of her mum’s affection….trying to somehow prove her mum wrong…

This story got me thinking of how serious a parent’s words are. They have a serious effect on children. Children soak in everything their parents say. Some children are strong and are able to shake off the bad words as they grow up but some are not so strong. They tuck in those words and carry them around through life like a scout’s knife.

I have been practicing my driving this year but I was subconsciously waiting for my father to rubber stamp my competency. Everyone thought I was doing very well but I could not agree to drive alone. One day though just a month ago, my dad gave me his car and said that he trusted me to drive it alone. I was so surprised at the effect that approval had on me. I drove alone for the first time and I was more than proud of myself.

Parents, your words are important to your children. They might not admit it but you affect them more than you know. May you seek to build them up instead of tearing them down with what you say.

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Love,

Ndanu

Love of self

I have been battling serious writer’s block the past few weeks but I have to overcome it. Otherwise I am going to burst with words that remain unwritten….

I have been thinking about what ‘loving oneself’ really means. I remember knowing what it was not but not really being sure of what it was. An example is a friend of mine who really thought she loved herself however her actions pointed to an exact opposite. She dressed impeccably and spent a lot of money on herself but some habits she had left me asking myself what love really was…. She loves soda and would drink like 2 liters of Sprite every single day. She gained a lot of weight in a span of just a year and as much as it pained me, I did not know what exactly was wrong until a few weeks ago. I am not saying that weight gain in itself is bad but too much soda is literally DEADLY!! 😦 We discovered this wholistic love concept together during a heart to heart….

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You see, the same way loving another person requires work, commitment and ‘tough love’, the same applies to loving ourselves. If we applied this concept, we would discover that most of us loathe (i dare say) ourselves. I cannot eat fries everyday and say I love myself. I cannot spend money on unnecessary things so much so that I save nothing and say that I love myself. I cannot drink crazy and drive and say that I love myself. I cannot stay with that abusive boyfriend and say that I love myself. I cannot always get back with that cheating partner and say that I love myself. I cannot continue messing my heart and mind with porn and insist that I love myself….

When we truly love someone, we do all we can to tell them the truth and always work for their good whether they like it or not. Love does not always feel nice but it is always working for good. ….love does not envy, does not boast, is not proud, it is not self seeking, keeps no record of wrong…. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres…. The same applies to loving yourself.

May we gain a heart of wisdom in this matter and always make sure that we do and say only that which builds us and not destroy us. It is fundamental for us if we are to love others truly and even teach our children what it truly means to love themselves.

On that note, i need to start that morning jog or zumba classes. I have not exercised in over 2 years /o\….

Here is to a whole generation! 🙂 🙂 🙂

Love,

Ndanu.