Mind Games

Yesterday I spent sometime with a good friend of mine. He is one of the best and most passionate dancers I have met under the sun! Watching him on stage yesterday got me thinking about how the mind affects our actions. In the last month or so, i have discovered that I have to work on my thoughts. I have so many things I want to do in this life but them coming to pass is greatly dependent on what I think. Many times when I get doubts about my ability to perform a task that is before me, when I allow these doubts to grow, they slowly cripple me and become a reality. I end up not doing the task at all or doing it poorly! However, when I talk to myself and remind myself of all the gifts and abilities that Yahweh has placed in me, I am able to do exploits, unimaginable, unfathomable things for His Glory.

Last week I was practicing my driving lessons. I saw how i was doing very well most days until one day I started to think, “Ndanu you are learning too slow, will you ever be able to drive alone in these streets of Nairobi?” . That day I had no confidence on the road and I made 1000 mistakes because I allowed doubt to take root in my head. Doubt crippled me.

I gave up on learning the guitar a while back because of the same doubts and self discouragement. I however resumed the lessons and I am taking a day at a time!! It is hard hard work because there is so much to learn but I will be a much better musician when I am able to play the guitar and so many people are learning to play everyday! I have the mind of Christ and soon I will be playing very well!! I will keep practicing and believing that I can do it!!

In August I will be doing my very 1st wedding cakes. It is such a big deal for me and I have pressure from within to do an exceptional job. I have been thinking of the designs and I want to sketch and choose the final design. I am keeping my mind free of doubt about my ability to do this job. You see, doubts are lies. Lies that you are not good enough, lies that you do not have the gifts that God gave you, lies that you cannot change the world with your gifts. God has blessed my hands and given me tonnes of creativity! He has brought this cake job to me as a start to many more! I will bake, decorate and do an amazing job!! My gift will set me up to dine with Kings! My gift will bless many and as I glorify God with my gifts, He will draw men to Himself!

James 1:6-8

But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do.



Two Things

I knew I would not be able to sleep tonight until I wrote about these 2 things. So here goes 🙂

Thing 1:

I have realized that part of my purpose in this life is to talk about and help people speak up on topics seldom spoken about! People may think these topics are embarrassing but I believe in talking about anything under the sun! If it affects you then it’s worth talking about!! Today I will write about “when one likes someone but the other person does not feel the same”. I think this is one of the most messed up situations in this life!!! I have been in all sides of this triangle and I think it sucks!! I have been in the situation where someone likes me a lot but I do not feel the same!! I have been in a situation where I really like someone but they feel nothing for me!! I have also been in a situation where I know 2 people, one liking the other but the liked party feeling absolutely nothing for the liker!! Wooii!! Such bad situations. However, in my short life, I have learn’t that dealing with the situation head on will bring healing! Find out the truth, accept it however hard it is and move on a step at a time!! Do not beat yourself up for both liking or not liking! Just be gentle and know that such is life! Life comes with so much but we know that we can overcome because Christ has overcome the world!!!

John 16:33

 I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world

Therefore, if you have gone through any of these things or are going through them now, please know that many of us have and have come out in one piece. Face your fear, be gentle and let God heal you!! You will be better than fine!!! 🙂

Thing 2:

I was talking to one cool soul (Nduta Mainda) a few days ago about how people’s paths cross in this life!! This is so amazing!! It’s amazing how God orchestrates every aspect of our lives!! We thought about all the people we have ever met in this life!! How some were to stay in our lives as good friends, how some were for a season, how some were just for a few seconds. Every meeting was mean’t for an exchange of sorts. That guy stepped on you or that rude makanga came to show you how angry you have become lately, that beggar on the street that caught your attention was to remind you of how blessed you are with perfect limbs and a roof over your head, that university boyfriend that is now or soon to be your husband was God’s way of showing you that marriage works and that He ordained the happenings of your life while you were still in your mother’s womb!! People are amazing!! God is amazing!! Let us live everyday to the full!! Let us be open to everyone who we get to interact with throughout our lives!! Let us show love and respect for every soul because there lies in them treasures in these bodies, treasures in these jars of clay!! Treasures untold!!

2 Cor 4:7

But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us.

Though thick and thin, life is beautiful!! Let’s enjoy the ups and downs and grow from strength to strength!!

Live, Laugh, Love!!