I am in a mat one early morning and I get one of those random moments where thoughts flow in my heart and they come from somewhere higher than my head.
This morning I am thinking about Joseph of the bible. He was in a situation where he could have easily just given in to Potiphar’s wife’s demands. He could say that there was no other choice, that he was cornered, that it was not his fault. But no, Joseph did not. He knew he had to find a way out because there is always a way out! He ran away! He ran away from the scene. His body might have been feeling all sorts of things but he still ran. Potiphar’s wife might have been crazy beautiful but Joseph still ran away!
I sat in the mat thinking about the reason Joseph was able to run. What was he thinking? What gave him the heart and the strength to run? Wouldn’t it have been easier to sleep with her than go through all the trouble he went through after ‘the run’? He went to jail for heaven’s sake!! And actually it was for the sake of Heaven that He ran 🙂
However I was disturbed that morning as my thoughts continued to play out. I seem to live in a generation of people who never flee. We love God with our mouths but our hearts seem very far from Him. We lift our hands in worship and go home that evening to watch porn. We are in bible study and youth fellowship but our lives outside of the curch compound are a complete mess. We are untruthful, ungrateful people. We think we know everything and we rarely stop to listen. We think God is just another nice guy who is clueless and we should care nada about him. We think wearing the latest clothes, the best bling, the highest heel, the shortest skirt, carrying the dopest phone is all life is about. We are simply shallow.
This shallowness, I discovered, is one the reasons we cannot run. We are terribly shallow. We have no roots thus our tree is like the fig that Jesus cursed for bearing no fruit. How can we possibly bear fruit with such shallowness? We are moved by every doctrine because we do not know the truth. Shallowness makes us either too lazy or too tired to run away like Joseph. We are lazy because we are comfortable in sin. It is the easy way out, we think. Or, we are too tired to run away. Tired of sin, tired of being empty from the futile rat race of life, tired from heartache, tired from worry, tired from empty pleasures that leave us more emptier, tired from trying to please others, tired from always trying to fit in, tired of always falling back… Just tired! 😦
Timothy in 2 Timothy 2:22 urges us to flee/run away. 22 Flee the evil desires of youth and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart.
The Lord is merciful and gracious and will always forgive us and be ready to heal us and bring us back to himself but what happens if He is continuously cleaning us and we are continuously going back to our vomit like dogs? This hinders growth and our roots remain shallow, we remain shallow, we are in turn unable to run and the vicious cycle continues. Let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us…….! We should make the decision to run and not look back, to keep running even when the race feels too difficult. We can keep running because we are never alone. He has overcome the world!!
My conclusion that morning as I alighted the mat was this: Lord teach us to run. Teach me to run. Help me to know you and to want to obey you with all my heart like Joseph. When you run your eyes over the land looking for one who is faithful, Lord may you find me faithful (Ezekiel 22:30 I looked for a man among them who would build up the wall and stand before me in the gap on behalf of the land so I would not have to destroy it, but I found none) May you build us up so you do not regret creating us like you did in the times of Noah. Breath life into us! Remove the shackles from my feet so I can run, so I can flee youthful lusts and be found faithful! Help me! Help us!!
I AM is your name.